Indifferent to our Blessings

In Numbers 32:1-42 we find the account of the division of some land east of the Jordan River. In these verses, the tribes of Gad and Reuben came to Moses and said that they wanted to take the land they were currently in as their inheritance rather than continuing over the Jordan to the land God had promised them. Indifference is defined as lack of interest, concern or sympathy towards others. When I first read through this chapter I didn’t really see it as an example of indifference. All of their able-bodied men were planning to continue on with their countrymen to help in whatever battles would arise as they claimed the Promised Land, then the two tribes would return to the cities they had built for their families. Just casually reading through it may be difficult to pick up on their indifference…I didn’t really pick up on it until I studied more. Continue reading Indifferent to our Blessings

Word!!

Ok, so maybe I was late to the game or sitting in the dark but who out there chooses a word for the year?! I had never heard of doing that until this year. I have been blessed with a group of ladies that I’m able to meet with weekly (and if you’ve read any of my other posts you know that they were instrumental in pulling me back to God!!) …well through them I was introduced to the concept of a word for the year. Honestly it was slightly confusing and stressful to me at first! lol I wasn’t walking with God when we had to share our word one Friday as we met for coffee and encouragement. I had “researched” the best way to choose a word or the top words picked each year (apparently this is something people have done for years!! Where was I??!!), but the ladies wanted us to pray and seek God’s leading for our choice. Well, at that time (end of Dec) I wasn’t praying or seeking God and I didn’t really care to! Somehow I landed on the word LISTEN. It’s actually ironic seeing as how I’m deaf (legally, over 50% loss in each ear since birth)…but God knew what I needed. Even though I think I picked that word to poke fun at my hearing loss, God knew I needed to listen to Him and the godly influences He had placed in my life. Since then everything is different (read my post “Who Am I” for more details on that) and my word touches me daily! So, anytime you read my posts and you see the word listen typed in all caps, that’s why! It’s a reminder for myself.

Proverbs 1:5 “Let the wise hear and increase in learning, and the one who understands obtain guidance.”

Proverbs 19:20 “Listen to advice and accept instruction, that you may gain wisdom in the future.”

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Anakainosis is a change of heart and life…a heart softened by God’s truth and a life transformed by the application of God’s truth. This is what I want for my life and for you…and it only happens if we LISTEN!! Who or what are you listening to?!

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So…what’s your word??

 

Blessings in the Blah?!

Sick. Four little letters that make up one little word yet seem to control our lives at times. I am sick…again! For what seems like the umpteenth time since the calendar flipped to 2018 I am once again banished to the couch…a coughing, sneezing, feverish, and at times barely breathing, mess! Blah! This time diagnosed with multiple plague worthy diagnoses…the end result of each the same- stay home and rest. Stay home. Alone. Isolated. More broken plans, more disappointed friends, and more, much, much, more disappointed me!

 

But when is enough enough? Sickness? Health? Loss? Gain? Curse? Blessing? Hearing people say, “I just can’t take it”…but can they? Can I?! Why do some people seem to just glide through life problem free while others deal with so much? Problems. Illness. Pain. Death. Mine isn’t even that bad and I feel overwhelmed! Awake at 2:30am coughing into a darkened house can make you see things in a way you don’t in the light of day. Everything I am facing right now will pass, I just need time. But what about those who don’t have that reassurance?? What about…

…the father holding his 12 year old son as he goes through the pain of yet another chemo treatment?

…the man dealing with lung cancer who took care of himself, never smoked, but has it “just because”?

…the mother holding her little girl as she is immobilized due to a tricky, and very painful, surgery in hopes of fending off and slowing down a painful and rare disease?

…the pastor’s wife trying to be a faithful example as she deals with the painful disease that quite literally twists her body apart, at times, and has been passed on to her young daughter?

When is enough enough? When is it too much?

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Who Am I?

Where I Come From

“I was just a child, when I felt the Savior leading

I was drawn to what I could not understand.

And for the cause of Christ, I have spent my days believing

That what He’d have me be, is who I am.”

The opening lines from Greg Long’s, “Mercy Said No”, could pretty much be used to sum up my childhood. I was raised in the church..in fact, I can’t remember not being in church. We were definitely a “there everytime the doors are open” kind of family. I realized that I needed Jesus and His forgiveness when I was nine years old. I can still remember the day, the details, the feeling of awe as I prayed for Jesus to forgive me of my sins and to be Lord of my life. I have no doubt that I was forgiven that day. Had I died at any point after that night, June 9,1987, I know that I would’ve found myself in heaven with my next breath. But is that enough? To just….

…know we are going to heaven?

…live our life anyway we choose?

…know we have “fire insurance” and are safe from hell?

Continue reading Who Am I?